scary: mathis

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[hi. he takes a seat with him; he's quiet, but it's not composure on his end. he's just...

he's just the kind of sad that's exhausted. out of tears, nothing left.]

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[ That's a mood.

Gently tugs on Mathis so they are leaning against one another. ]

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[he moves to lean against him easily, exhaling a slow and shaky breath.]

I don't know... how much more we can-

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I know.

I can't tell you... what we can do but keep surviving.

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I- I can't either.

But I'm... I'm tired.

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Me too.

I'm ready for this to be done.

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I... I am too.

It's too much.

[and then on top of it all he's pretty sure he's misstepped with lavi so that's fine.]

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Yeah.

I'm just holding onto the idea of revenge against this cult.

[ haha violence! ]

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Then I hope-- I hope that you get it.

I'm not sure that would... help me much.

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[ he's not violent... ]

Not much for revenge?

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It was the most important thing to me, before. I thought that I needed to avenge my brother. That desire... wouldn't let me live a more normal life, and it was all... all fake to begin with.

[he shakes his head, posture slumping a bit.]

...I don't have it in me.

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It's probably the healthy thing.

[ He glances up. ]

Besides, revenge wouldn't make any of this okay.

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Then... why do you still want it?

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[ He thinks back to another cult, and another question. ]

They need to be stopped permanently. If there's a nonviolent way to do that, we can explore it too.