scary: mathis

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We really only have humans and Relivers, where I come from, so I'm not sure that I would... understand completely.

[whether it's true or not, he just doesn't have any context for it-- relivers are still cloned humans, effectively, so.]

B-but that's... that's true. I'm not.

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So you're a Reliver?

[ whatever that is ]

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N...no. I'm not... either of them.

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Then...?

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I-I'm, um. The one who created me called me a... a homunculus.

['my cute, foolish little homunculus.' that still sits in his head.]

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Oh. [ whoa science fiction ] Is that a problem?

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I-is it...?

[like. is that a problem for YOU.]

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[ for him....... ]

It's on your arm because it bothers you, doesn't it?

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Well... y-yes. It means I'm not-- real.

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...? What do you mean?

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Most of me is just taken from... other people. Pieced together to make my memories.

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[ wow ]

... When did you find out?

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Just before we woke up here...?

[he is literally still in the middle of going through it.]

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Oh. [ YIKES ] That's a lot to deal with...

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A-at least this is, um... something different to deal with, in the meantime...

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So how long ago were you created? You don't have to talk about it.

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[he doesn't have to, huh.

mathis nods, but-- it's fine. he's still dealing with this, here, he doesn't think he entirely minds.]

A... about a year ago.

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Do you know why?

[ he's... BABY ]

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Yes. The person who made me-- he has someone he wants to recreate to revive them, so I'm... a test of the methods to do that. Um, I'm not that person, though.

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You're someone else?

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I don't know whether I'm... anyone.

[he shakes his head, not quite looking at it.]

I remember living all the way up to seventeen, but that's all- it was all false.

[and so everything that made up his history, that made him-- that makes it fake too. doesn't it?]

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[ ok this is a lot to process both ic and oocly EVEN AS SOMEONE WHO HAS LEARNED ABOUT VIRCHE

eventually... he just shrugs ]

The fact that you exist means you're someone. I'm pretty sure that's the only prerequisite.

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Even if- I only exist for that experiment...?

[listen it's a lot to process for mathis too which is why he's even talking about this on week 0 he JUST learned this and then woke up in cultist simulator 2k24 he's struggling out here]

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[ sweet mathis... ]

That's up to you to decide, isn't it? Being here has nothing to do with the experiment, but you still exist.

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I... I do, yes.

[there's that.]

But everything that made me-- it was all from others. My memories were based on their lives. So I can't be certain of... who "I" actually am.