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[personal profile] cumulative 2024-06-15 12:40 am (UTC)(link)
Even if- I only exist for that experiment...?

[listen it's a lot to process for mathis too which is why he's even talking about this on week 0 he JUST learned this and then woke up in cultist simulator 2k24 he's struggling out here]
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[personal profile] cumulative 2024-06-16 09:57 pm (UTC)(link)
I... I do, yes.

[there's that.]

But everything that made me-- it was all from others. My memories were based on their lives. So I can't be certain of... who "I" actually am.
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[personal profile] cumulative 2024-06-17 02:56 am (UTC)(link)
They... they do?

[it always just seemed like something other people had all figured out, even before he knew his memories were false. he's always been a shut-in, kept away from others for the most part; this isn't something he's often spoken about with them, and the struggles characters in the books he read went through were often so much bigger.]

...do- you already know who you want to be?
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[personal profile] cumulative 2024-06-17 04:00 pm (UTC)(link)
W-well, um, if you haven't decided it for yourself... then I think... both of us can spend some time thinking about it while we're here, can't we?

[even he doesn't know yet, but he can give that advice anyway... that really is impressive. so is the honesty in admitting to it.]
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[personal profile] cumulative 2024-06-17 11:27 pm (UTC)(link)
...thank you.

[mathis smiles a little as well, at that.]

I-I may not know much about it, but you can... speak with me as well, if you want to? I wouldn't want to-- to just burden you.

[so he will at least offer, whether geto takes it or not.]