[it's going to be a minute before he can say anything. it's the kind of sobbing where he's struggling to breathe evenly again, breath hitching on it when he tries to exhale more steadily, whole body trembling.
we were just- i thought we were-- getting somewhere.]
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but mathis clings to him, head on his shoulder, just sobbing. this one is bad! it's fucking bad!]
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Just murmuring, ] I'm sorry.
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we were just- i thought we were-- getting somewhere.]
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He doesn't know what the thoughts are about, but all he can offer, ] Feels like another step back.
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i wanted kanda to-- he should have--
...he really wanted him to live.]
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You were close with Kanda.
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he shakes his head, still clinging.]
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[ He doesn't have to answer, but Geto isn't going to remain sitting here much longer.
So he just picks Mathis up, and carry him so that they can sit by the pyre. ]
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I- I think I was... starting to be. Maybe.
[he said i was only going to get hurt.
guess he was right.]
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[ He says it without heat, just quiet and reflective. ]
That's true of getting close to anyone.
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[he agrees, quietly, but without any force behind it on his end either. he loves lavi, he cares so much about kanda, but.
well, they are.]
I didn't want him to die.
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[ He closes his eyes. ]
And tomorrow's just going to make it worse.
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[ooooh it's gonna suck. it's gonna suck!]
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I wonder if the killers are looking forward to being caught.