turbulency | scary: mathis

[ Ah. Gives him a worried look. ]

I wouldn't go pick a fight with Satoru. He's pretty stubborn.

I- I have plenty of reason to, though...!

[but he does pause.]

... He didn't mean any harm.

He can just be thoughtless.

Has he apologized to you yet...?

I've been avoiding him so... He probably wants to though.

... w-well, I... don't blame you for that.

... Do you think I'm being stupid?

I think that... I'd have been angry with him in your place.

[ He just buries his face in his hands.

Feelings suck. ]

They... they do.

[lmao. he knows. he knows...]

[ He sighs. ]

Sorry. We have bigger things to worry about anyway.

That doesn't mean that you... can't worry about anything else.

... I'd like to see you happy. That's all.

[ That gets him to smile. ]

Thanks, Mathis. I'll be okay once I cool off a little bit.

I- I hope so.

['i care about you, too, so...']

But if he doesn't at least apologize, I really will be upset with him...!

... You're a good friend, Mathis. [ He'll squeeze his hand. ] I know he will, I just want some space from him right now.

[ I hope things don't get awkward with Lavi either. ]

...I hope so too, but I think it'll be all right. I-if things weren't awkward between us, after what I said to him last week, then...

[then surely things will be fine with them and lavi.]

[ Glances at him. ]

Yeah. Are you doing okay, by the way?

Yes-? Why wouldn't I be...? We're still friends, so I don't mind it.

['i wish that he were able to let anyone else in for his own sake, but-'

his thought trails off there.]

[ You worry more about Lavi than yourself. ]

You're a better person than me. I'd probably obsess over it a while.

['i couldn't really have expected anything else, though.'

he doesn't say it aloud, but thank you, thoughtshare.]

Um... well, we have... more to worry about.

[that's just what geto said a minute ago]

You just told me that I'm still allowed to worry about other things.

[ Frowns. ]

O-oh... I did...

[maybe he shouldn't have said that.]

...I wouldn't say that I've... obsessed over it at all. But even if it isn't awkward, i-it's still...

It still hurts a bit to see him smile at me, sometimes.

[ His expression softens, and he judges Mathis' shoulder. ]

Yeah, it's not that different to losing someone. A type of grief over love you didn't get to have. [ He sighs. ] And it's okay if it takes time to mourn.

Even though it feels like we don't have any time at all here.

I-it really does. That's a part of... why I said anything, to begin with.

[there's never any telling how much time there is.]

It makes sense.

[ also he nudging his shoulder not judging i really need to sleep ]

I get why you wouldn't want to show it in front of him too, but if you want to talk about it or just let yourself feel sad, I can sit with you.

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