[ To hate being vulnerable... It's difficult, even if it's the reality they have to accept. Back at home, they have solid methods of counter-attacking and defending themselves here. He has thought about it, maybe thought too much about it when no one is around.
It's a dark cloud that is always over them while they're here. ]
Then you'd need to do a stupid trial for me the next day, huh.
[ He gives Suguru a little squeeze in this hug. As long as one of them makes it out, that is what matters. ]
This starts as confusing because isn't it obvious? But what he learned from back home, right before he came here, is that not everything is obvious... His expression softens as he leans in to press their foreheads together. ]
Idiot, of course I don't want to find a poster for you on our cursed bulletin board. I don't want anything to happen to you.
[ Why else the restless and sleepless nights if not for them? If anything were to happen, it should happen to him instead. ]
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[ And kisses his cheek. ]
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You're not wishing it was you instead?
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[ Holds Suguru's hand, giving it a squeeze, as he stays close. ]
Another week.
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Yeah.
You starting to get worried?
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... Less died this week? So not bad. [ He looks over to him. ] You all right?
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I'm okay. [ Thoughtful, ] But I'm thinking about how next week it could be one of us.
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[ HE HAS BEEN LAP PILLOWING A LOT LATELY, but who is he to complain. He rests on his lap lazily. ]
It's barely the halfway point. Would they be able to ration us?
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Maybe they'll stick to two or... even less.
[ Playing with his hair...
... And then he stops suddenly and pulls Satoru back up for a hug. ]
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It takes him a moment, but he hugs back. ]
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Do you need to get in the swamp again?
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And possibly roll some side effect that has me lose my mind every once in a while? I think I'm good to heal normally from here.
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Don't get into anymore fights with Kanda then.
[ Bites his collarbone. ]
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I won't, I won't! Promise.
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Good.
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It's the last day of the rule...
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You're getting my hair in your mouth.
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[ Noses his hair now. ]
It's going to be okay.
[ Even though this is a murdergame. ]
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I just worried I'll wake up on a Friday and your poster will be on the bulletin board.
[ It's easier to say worried than afraid.
It's also easier to frame it like this than to say I don't want to lose you as if Satoru is his to keep. ]
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It's a dark cloud that is always over them while they're here. ]
Then you'd need to do a stupid trial for me the next day, huh.
[ He gives Suguru a little squeeze in this hug. As long as one of them makes it out, that is what matters. ]
What happens happens. Right now, I'm here.
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He sits up a little, straightening so that he can watch Satoru's expression. ]
Satoru... I don't need you to comfort me. [ Though he's appreciative, voice not scolding. ] I just want to know that you feel the same.
[ ... ]
Or don't. Whichever it is.
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This starts as confusing because isn't it obvious? But what he learned from back home, right before he came here, is that not everything is obvious... His expression softens as he leans in to press their foreheads together. ]
Idiot, of course I don't want to find a poster for you on our cursed bulletin board. I don't want anything to happen to you.
[ Why else the restless and sleepless nights if not for them? If anything were to happen, it should happen to him instead. ]
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