ablazement: (now what are you beefin for)

[personal profile] ablazement 2024-06-26 04:30 am (UTC)(link)
Not... actively.

[there's a pause, when he says this, because she really does not have a strong argument. but that's the thing about the memory he just saw. she'd come to terms with it. letting herself hope for this in particular feels like stepping on coals.

it's scary.]
ablazement: (there's gonna be other radroaches)

[personal profile] ablazement 2024-06-27 03:56 am (UTC)(link)
[she exhales slow.]

I don't want to die. [she says, finally, looking at him.] I really, really... don't want to die.

[in the most exhausted way possible.]
ablazement: (he looks like seven pterodactyls)

[personal profile] ablazement 2024-06-27 10:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[she struggles with that a bit, but. she thinks it's nice of him.]

Yeah. Maybe. Maybe I will be, I don't know. But thank you.

[also memshare me back]
ablazement: (there's a field with thirty ghost boys)

[personal profile] ablazement 2024-06-29 03:54 am (UTC)(link)
[oh great fantastic this is alarming.

it's the tired nature of it - it's the wanting it to stop, it's the desperation of a kid who has been pushed to his limit and never given any sort of reprieve. her metal heart aches. it aches so bad, because this is what she was talking about before. all of the adults have failed him.

it takes a second, and then she turns to him and puts her hands gently on his face, looking at him.]


... You don't have to resort to that. It won't make you feel any better.
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[personal profile] ablazement 2024-06-29 04:55 am (UTC)(link)
[yeah yeah she's known a lot of teenagers with genocidal thoughts, this is alright. what she wants to do so help. because it doesn't have to be that way, and because scolding or shouting at at a kid who is backed into a corner is...

well. there was a reason she was so angry about what happened to karma.]


What's important, then?

[gentle. not pushy - he doesn't have to tell her. she can probably guess. but that's not the point. she's listening.]
ablazement: (now what are you beefin for)

[personal profile] ablazement 2024-06-29 05:21 am (UTC)(link)
It isn't all there is. There's so much more to life, and I'm sorry you're being robbed of it.

[she has not let go of his face yet, sorry buddy. a pause, then maybe abruptly:]

Do you think I deserved what happened to me?

[there's a point to this,]
ablazement: (he looks like seven pterodactyls)

[personal profile] ablazement 2024-06-29 05:59 am (UTC)(link)
Didn't think so.

Killing a bunch of innocent people who have lives, and families, and favorite colors and favorite foods, memories of people they've loved - it's what Gortash did. It's what he did to me. It's what he wanted to do to the people in my home, because he thought he knew best.

There's no meaning in that. It's senseless. It's empty.

[she keeps his gaze, if he'll let her.]

It won't solve anything. You'll still be locked into a world that wants to use you until you're a husk, just in a brand new, fucked up way.
ablazement: (there's a field with thirty ghost boys)

[personal profile] ablazement 2024-06-30 05:05 am (UTC)(link)
Probably not. That's a lot of people.

[a beat.]

But it doesn't mean your problem is unfixable.
ablazement: ❥ megascopes (try to outrun your crimes)

[personal profile] ablazement 2024-07-01 02:18 am (UTC)(link)
Nah. It's not a competition.

Shit hits people differently, and it weighs differently. Doesn't matter if it's ten or two or two hundred. Especially when you've got nothing to hold onto.

[she lets go of his face finally, but she strokes his hair back carefully as she does.]

I've got hope for you. I can lend it.
ablazement: (i think we could make the sequel to dogs)

[personal profile] ablazement 2024-07-01 09:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[HELP i love you geto]

I'll do my best. [warmly! she likes to see that smile.]