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[personal profile] ablazement 2024-07-14 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
[she absolutely flinches at this. she's still pretty hulked out - yellow eye closed, horns grown out, teeth long.

the noise she makes is like a growl, and then:]


Scared.
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[personal profile] ablazement 2024-07-14 01:35 am (UTC)(link)
[want to live I wanted to live I want to I have to die don't make me do this again please

silence, and then, staggered, stuttering:]


I don't - I don't want you to.
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[personal profile] ablazement 2024-07-14 01:44 am (UTC)(link)
No.

[she hisses at that first part. her tail lashes angrily behind her.]

You need to live. [he can probably see her digging her nails into her thigh.]
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[personal profile] ablazement 2024-07-14 01:51 am (UTC)(link)
It doesn't matter.

[hiccups.]

You saw what I did to him.
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[personal profile] ablazement 2024-07-14 02:12 am (UTC)(link)
[she brings a hand up to claw at the bubble weakly.]

I'm sorry.
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[personal profile] ablazement 2024-07-14 02:59 am (UTC)(link)
[it really feels like she doesn't have any tears left to cry, but they come anyway.]

You helped enough. You caught me. I wanted it.
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[personal profile] ablazement 2024-07-14 03:33 am (UTC)(link)
[she just sits where she is, too tired to keep standing. she's probably still bleeding, actually.]

I didn't. But I did. [she says, voice cracking.] He forgave me. For it. In the end.
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[personal profile] ablazement 2024-07-14 03:51 am (UTC)(link)
Because that's how he is. Because he thought he wasn't strong enough to stop me. Fucking stupid. It's -

[she interrupts herself with a hysterical little giggle, her engine flaring.]
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[personal profile] ablazement 2024-07-14 03:59 am (UTC)(link)
[sorry, she interrupts her giggles to fucking scream this at him:]

I didn't want it!
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[personal profile] ablazement 2024-07-14 04:11 am (UTC)(link)
[help he just treats her like a tantruming five year old, which. fair.

she doesn't say anything.]
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[personal profile] ablazement 2024-07-14 01:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[okay. okay.

she just - starts crying. just awful, exhausted, hiccupping sobs. she thuds her head against the barrier and cries, because she doesn't know what else to do. she's so tired. she's done something that is so absolutely, soul-wrenchingly out of her bounds of morality that she can't quite handle it, and she's still alive to deal with it.

being forgiven just feels a little like salt on the wound.]