scary: karlach

[turbulency]

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[ablazement]

Hey, Suguru.

[she comes to sit next to him, pulling her knees to her chest, hiding her face. she doesn't have any hopeful words today, which. is maybe telling.]

[turbulency]

[ He leans against her, quiet. ]

Did you... see anything?

[ablazement]

No.

[she carefully rests her head against his.]

Didn't see anything at all.

[turbulency]

Neither did I.

[ . . . ]

It's tiring.

[ablazement]

[exhausted.]

We've got more to do tomorrow. [...] Another day of watching all our friends lose their minds to a monster.

[turbulency]

I really don't want to. Catching killers doesn't make anything better.

But I guess people will want to know what happened.

[ablazement]

It makes it so they don't have to do it again.

[her voice breaks a little there.]

... But yeah. Closure isn't always worth it.

[turbulency]

[ Looking at her, thoughtful. ]

True. But they might still have a while before they do again.

[ablazement]

And then they've got to live with it.

Sort of cruel, if you ask me.

[turbulency]

[ . . . ]

It can be cruel.

But I'd rather that be their punishment than death.

[ablazement]

[she glances at him.]

Even if that's not what they want?

[turbulency]

Karlach.

Do you know something?

[ablazement]

No, of course I don't. [...] I've just talked to Camille.

[turbulency]

And she wishes that she hadn't been brought back?

[ablazement]

Yeah. Not that I care about her opinion on it, I want her here.

But it just makes me think about the other ones that have had to.

[turbulency]

... It's a terrible thing to live with.

But you just said you'd rather have Camille here. All we can do is try to make being alive less shitty for them.

[ablazement]

[silence, for a moment.]

Yeah. Tall fucking task.

[turbulency]

[ Okay, just straight up, ] Karlach, did you kill someone?

[ablazement]

[startles??? hello???

she blinks at him.]

No? What the fuck.

[turbulency]

[ Blinks back at her. ]

Sorry, you were freaking me out a little. [ ... ] I mean, not because you're down. I wasn't trying to be insensitive.

[ablazement]

[help me]

It's - it's fine. [...] No, I just...

[deep breath.]

It's just all been on my mind. I talked to Rondo a lot about it, and... [now he's gone.]

[turbulency]

[ imagine talking to a teenager and they're like why are you so sad is it because you KILLED SOMEONE? ]

... Was he like that, after Camille? Heavy with the guilt of it.

[ablazement]

[HE'S SO FUNNY really just jumpscaring her with murder accusations on a friday because she's a sad sack about her bestie dying]

Mmhm. [...] He and I wanted to save everybody, but - he was struggling with the fact that he had to hurt her to do it.

[turbulency]

... How did killing her help us save everyone?

[ablazement]

It didn't, I just mean - we talked about it. And he was upset because it didn't feel like he was doing anything to save people by doing that. If that makes sense.

But. It severed her monster connection, and he used the item he got from that place to bring her back.