[ Satoru normally has enough confidence to be able to do anything, but when it comes to interpersonal relationships... He isn't sure. He isn't sure if what he's saying is going through to him, unsure if it's something he should force or give space, and what steps would need to be made to have this cement.
Quietly, he watches Suguru's form, studying every nuanced shift even though his eyes can't tell him beyond human perception like it used to. It's enough to see Suguru still be torn and conflicted, enough to see there's still a light inside of him that warmly flickers for those around him, even if small. Satoru supposes if he needs to repeat and reassure multiple times, regardless of the time and the costs, it would be worth it.
When the vulnerable displays manifest, he turns away instantly, giving Suguru some privacy, but not letting go of this new hand that's being given to him. It's held just as tight as he considers if he should say anything. Everything else had been easy to say, it was all to help Suguru, but this... ]
It's because of you.
[ Grumbled as he rubs his nose, still keeping his gaze at absolutely nothing. Maybe a family photo of an animal crossing villager. For now, he can put his teenage ego down for a truth. It's a reminder that Suguru has imparted good on people and the world before. This is one, isn't it?
Satoru started looking beyond and below of his summit because of him. ]
[ The fact that Satoru is admitting that his nagging might have actually yielded results might be the most surprising part of this conversation, considering it's something they used to get into fights over all the time.
It warms him anyway, even if he thinks that Satoru should give himself more credit. ]
Thanks for trying to understand.
[ For not leaving him behind when he started falling behind.
He means to take Satoru's other hand again, but instead his fingers brush over his cheek, just under his eyes. Satoru looks tired. ]
[ He will lean against him, still holding his hand, and they can just chill until they head to the barn because Satoru is like YOU KNOW WHAT WOULD HELP therapy animals. ]
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Quietly, he watches Suguru's form, studying every nuanced shift even though his eyes can't tell him beyond human perception like it used to. It's enough to see Suguru still be torn and conflicted, enough to see there's still a light inside of him that warmly flickers for those around him, even if small. Satoru supposes if he needs to repeat and reassure multiple times, regardless of the time and the costs, it would be worth it.
When the vulnerable displays manifest, he turns away instantly, giving Suguru some privacy, but not letting go of this new hand that's being given to him. It's held just as tight as he considers if he should say anything. Everything else had been easy to say, it was all to help Suguru, but this... ]
It's because of you.
[ Grumbled as he rubs his nose, still keeping his gaze at absolutely nothing. Maybe a family photo of an animal crossing villager. For now, he can put his teenage ego down for a truth. It's a reminder that Suguru has imparted good on people and the world before. This is one, isn't it?
Satoru started looking beyond and below of his summit because of him. ]
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It warms him anyway, even if he thinks that Satoru should give himself more credit. ]
Thanks for trying to understand.
[ For not leaving him behind when he started falling behind.
He means to take Satoru's other hand again, but instead his fingers brush over his cheek, just under his eyes. Satoru looks tired. ]
I hope I can return the favour, eventually.
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He feels the touch to his cheek, then turns slightly to face him. Is this how cats are handled... ]
Mm... I said I would talk to you about stuff, too, but later.
[ so much has happened and will happen. The priority is the now and he also hopes Suguru understands there isn't reluctance like there was before. ]
You can return the favor by spilling.
[ Again, he doesn't and won't hate you. ]
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But his hand drops, and he kind of slumps against the couch, head resting against the backrest, closing his eyes. ]
Can we talk more in a bit? I'm kind of tired. I won't spiral anymore tonight, I promise.
[ THEY HAVE JUST WORKED THROUGH A LOT ]
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Fine.
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Thanks.
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