The flowers turn into little hearts. He can sit on his lap, and he'll put his hands on his waist, one of his fingers slipping under his shirt just to trace the skin there. ]
[ Satoru gets comfortable, making sure that his weight is distributed evenly while he also rests his head on Suguru's shoulder. The hold around his waist keeps him secure, too. Very nice.
I'm serious about you. [ I like you... I like you so much. While he doesn't quite like what he's about to say, the next part doesn't bother him too intensely. It still has him snuggling close. ] But if you want to be casual, I don't mind that as long as you give me the most attention.
... I don't know the logistics of what's going to happen when we leave.
I don't want to be casual, you already saw how I reacted with Lavi.
[ You're the only one for me.
But. Yeah. Obviously Satoru wouldn't know.
He closes his eyes, sighing. ]
We might get separated.
[ And split the timelines? He has no idea. But he thinks of Satoru going back, and all his efforts here that won't change what's already happened for him. It won't change that Geto Suguru had already massacred a village at his time.
I'm sorry, Satoru. I wish I could change it for you. You deserve better than... ]
Sounds like we're serious, then! I also want to keep all my teeth.
[ So no playing around for him, not when it's Suguru. He forces Suguru to plop onto the bed. He'll plop along with him. ]
I should ask the goats about it some more but it keeps slipping my mind. [ my vacation ] If we do split, don't worry about me. But! You should definitely tell the me there how you feel when you get back.
... I'm sure he'd feel the same way.
[ Because that's still him and it's not like his feelings have changed. They're just a different shade, another facet, but it's still the same. ]
[ They plop back onto the bed, and he's going to keep Satoru close to him, pressing their foreheads together. ]
It's not fair to leave it like that for you.
[ For Satoru, who had done his best to reach out his hand to him, and endured this place, to go back and be forced to kill him?
... Well, maybe he's being too arrogant. Satoru could be fine after him; make a new best friend, fall in love with someone. He's only 18, and he has his entire life ahead of him.
[ A small shard of selflessness, as long as I know somewhere out there you're happy... Cheering me on... I'll be satisfied.
He cups Suguru's face while their foreheads are pressed, then affectionately rubs their noses. Even with an execution ordered for Suguru back at home and his resolve as strong as his own, Satoru can't imagine someone new filling in the spot Suguru claimed. He can't imagine anyone else understanding him as well as Suguru does.
There can never be anyone else. That spot will always be reserved for him. ]
But who knows! When I get back, I could change your mind... And I could have enough influence to lighten your sentencing. I'm not sure if you'll like me enough to kiss me, but that's something to think about later.
[ Priorities, but... He plants a little kiss on his lips. He wants to indulge while he can. ]
It'd be convenient if timelines converged, then we can keep this. It's annoying to start from zero.
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Two days is up, right?
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It was on his mind? ]
Yeah, they are.
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The flowers turn into little hearts. He can sit on his lap, and he'll put his hands on his waist, one of his fingers slipping under his shirt just to trace the skin there. ]
Are you going to say anything?
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But he pouts a little, anyway. ]
Where's my daily "I like you?"
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He will tilt his head to give Satoru a kiss on his fluffy hair. ]
I like you, Satoru.
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[ You were just blind, but it's okay. I like you, Suguru. He is never cute. Suguru is always blind... he accepts the kiss though. ]
Did you want to vocalize your worries this time instead of keeping it all in your head?
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What are you talking about?
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When you were mad, a lot of your thoughts were out there. I was waiting for you to pick one to talk about, but then you kissed me.
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[ It's hard to say out loud. ]
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Okay. We can tackle each thing on your mind.
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Okay.
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First!
[ He pats Suguru's chest to begin. First thing on your mind!!! ]
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[ Looks away.
Does it matter? ]
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Yes, it does. So start talking.
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If you're not bothered, then I won't be either. It's not a big deal.
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[ His tone is stern, just a key away from being irritated. Another punch is in him, even though he's enjoying being on his lap. ]
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Ugh. ]
Fine. I was thinking about... if this is serious, or casual.
And if it's going to end when we leave here.
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I'm serious about you. [ I like you... I like you so much. While he doesn't quite like what he's about to say, the next part doesn't bother him too intensely. It still has him snuggling close. ] But if you want to be casual, I don't mind that as long as you give me the most attention.
... I don't know the logistics of what's going to happen when we leave.
[ Because we're from different moments in time. ]
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[ You're the only one for me.
But. Yeah. Obviously Satoru wouldn't know.
He closes his eyes, sighing. ]
We might get separated.
[ And split the timelines? He has no idea. But he thinks of Satoru going back, and all his efforts here that won't change what's already happened for him. It won't change that Geto Suguru had already massacred a village at his time.
I'm sorry, Satoru. I wish I could change it for you. You deserve better than... ]
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[ So no playing around for him, not when it's Suguru. He forces Suguru to plop onto the bed. He'll plop along with him. ]
I should ask the goats about it some more but it keeps slipping my mind. [ my vacation ] If we do split, don't worry about me. But! You should definitely tell the me there how you feel when you get back.
... I'm sure he'd feel the same way.
[ Because that's still him and it's not like his feelings have changed. They're just a different shade, another facet, but it's still the same. ]
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It's not fair to leave it like that for you.
[ For Satoru, who had done his best to reach out his hand to him, and endured this place, to go back and be forced to kill him?
... Well, maybe he's being too arrogant. Satoru could be fine after him; make a new best friend, fall in love with someone. He's only 18, and he has his entire life ahead of him.
But as long as you're happy, it's okay. ]
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[ A small shard of selflessness, as long as I know somewhere out there you're happy... Cheering me on... I'll be satisfied.
He cups Suguru's face while their foreheads are pressed, then affectionately rubs their noses. Even with an execution ordered for Suguru back at home and his resolve as strong as his own, Satoru can't imagine someone new filling in the spot Suguru claimed. He can't imagine anyone else understanding him as well as Suguru does.
There can never be anyone else. That spot will always be reserved for him. ]
But who knows! When I get back, I could change your mind... And I could have enough influence to lighten your sentencing. I'm not sure if you'll like me enough to kiss me, but that's something to think about later.
[ Priorities, but... He plants a little kiss on his lips. He wants to indulge while he can. ]
It'd be convenient if timelines converged, then we can keep this. It's annoying to start from zero.
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