[ He feels!! Stupid and gross... Feeling this vulnerable. ]

I know I didn't do great, but I wanted to give the other path something of a fighting chance.

[ It always has been and he had come to terms he can't force Suguru. He can't slot him back to how he used to be, but if he can warp the circumstances that forced Suguru's hand... If he can make an obvious choice become choices instead, maybe it'll be enough.

Thinking about what's out of his control and beyond his power leaves him feeling helpless, likewise awful, so he bonks his head against Suguru's shoulder. ]

It's still your choice and I'm not asking you to make it now.